I haven't written in awhile now. I really am going to do better. I enjoy writing my blog, but I dont always have something interesting or provocative to say. The truth is.. Im pretty happy right now. Im enjoying my life. And its been a long time since I could say that. Not that there wasnt parts of my life that I enjoyed, but as a whole, my life is better right now than it has been in a VERY long time. Maybe ever. Can I be so bold to say that? Ive never been closer to God than I am in this season on my life. In my obedience, He has directed a path that has brought me much peace, much joy and much growth. But most of all, its brought me right to Him. It's not easy all the time, but it's the most fruitful my life has been. AND..Ive just really started on the deeper path with Him.. I cant imagine what kind of plans He has for down the road! I LOVE, love doing whatever I can to be a reflection of Him and His glory. I fall short daily, but any moments I can give to Him are just PURE joy. Even in my struggles, I am still finding more peace than I usually do. He is just so crazy wonderful. He is providing in ways that a just simply incredible.
My schedule is about to change drastically and become a lot more hectic.. but Im okay.
I will miss my lifegroup til May, but He WILL make it okay.
My heart is still mending.. and He makes it better EVERY single day! Im getting okay.
I miss my mom and I still need her.. I have Him and Im okay.
Theres no man in my life.. and I'm OKAY!
Im not perfect and life is messy...... but with Him, all is okay.
Im fixed on my Father. He is the beginning and the end and everything in between. The minute we forget that He, and He alone, provides ALL.. Everything. EVERY tiny detail... is the minute we fall. But the minute we fall, there He is with endless grace and mercy. I dont know about you, but I dont have anyone on Earth who loves me like that.
This new year is full of promise and possibility. I sat on my duff all last year WAITING for my life to happen. I gave away my moments and my weeks, my months to anxiety and confusion.. just stuff. Stuff that didnt make any eternal difference in the world. Im sad about that and I will never do that again. I will not waste my time.. my life.. on what doesnt glorify the one who loves me unconditionally. Im His.. and my life is for His purpose. Ive done things my way the last 20 years.. Ive done things His way for the last 4 months.. and what did I say? My life is better than its been. I am so grateful I woke up.
Dose of Jake Sweetness: "Mommy, if you died today.. tomorrow I would die of a broken heart because you are the best thing to ever happen to me on this Earth." 1/3/08
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