Reflection.

I can't believe I haven't posted all week.. I think my endeavor to post daily is going to be usurped by my insane weekly schedule. BUT! I will do my best to stay on top of things.

My first week at my new job was good. I have to use the word good because I'm still not over the moon with the transition, but it was above and beyond what I could've expected for a first week at a new job. I did see some of my friends this week from Plano Derm, and that was helpful.. it did lift my spirits. Overall, I know this is the right choice and I'm just continuing to move forward. And of course it does help that... I passed my teacher exam and am now admitted into the program to start in January! God is so good.. so faithful.. and I am so, so grateful. I feel like it's just more confirmation that I'm headed in the right direction and that is so encouraging. So, it looks like this time next year "Ms. Costello" will be a school teacher. Pretty cool, folks.

The last couple of months have been some difficult ones. My heart, my spirit, my head are in repair.. and it's just not been an easy journey. I still have layers of hurt that I'm dealing with.. from the past and present. I have moments of pure joy and freedom.. and I still have moments of sadness and confusion. When we are finally at a point where our lives are just not workin' for us anymore.. it would be so great to fast forward through the work it takes to heal and just be healed. I know all of us have probably prayed that prayer at some point. Except that I know, for me, not dealing with certain things and not allowing myself to sift and FEEL things I needed to.. only brought me to another layer of hurt. So, even on the days.. or in the moments when I feel sad now.. I just let myself feel it.. I cry and just respect those feelings and then move on. The cool thing is.. that when you allow yourself to feel ALL the feelings and emotions we humans are capable of.. the good ones are even sweeter these days. I'm not numb anymore. And I know, without a doubt, I will wake up one of these days and I will be past this season.. and I am so excited to see what God has for me in the next. Because this time, folks, I'm letting Him lead.

Today I am Grateful For: That I am so loved not only by my Father.. but also by all these awesome people He has put in my life to love me. I am one loved chic. And I love you right back.