Provision.

Jake had a good cry about his dad this week. It was a tough conversation, him asking more of the same questions. He has gone from believing his dad was a superhero to being confused over his absence to now thinking he's a "big, fat selfish jerk." There has been no contact on John's end in 3 years and maybe one phone call in 4 years. I don't know, Jake knows exactly how many years and months it's been. Frankly, I've lost track. We've entered a new season with this because he's actually angry with him. He said he hated him. He has never said anything like that before about anyone. I am so grateful my days of being angry with John were reconciled long ago with the Lord. And while I want Jake to feel his feelings and work them through, it's hard to hear harsh things come out of his mouth. But I know that his day of forgiveness will come.. I know the Lord will provide Jake a way to peace in all of this. So, I listen to his anger, and I don't hastily bat it away out of fear of his heart turning bitter. I know God's got that boy and can handle his fists in the air. I do believe one thing.. one day, Jake will fall more in love with his Heavenly Father when he looks back at boyhood and sees how He provided all things even before he had peace about it, even while his fists were flailing and his tears were streaming.





"And my God will liberally supply (fill to the full) your every need according to His riches in glory in Christ Jesus." Philippians 4:19