Carpe Diem.

This week I got an invitation to interview for a school about 75 miles from where I live. I would have to relocate and give up the life I have here, so it brought up a lot of questions for me. See, my life this last year has become a picture of how Christ can transform a person's life from darkness to something in the light ...and beautiful. I have never been more content in my life, and I have never felt closer to my Father. And I know that the only reason my life looks the way it does is because I began to see Him and let Him take over every facet of how I live. Through this journey, I have learned so much about His character. And the more I know, the more I realize I will never know the true depths of who He is. And yet, I still put Him in a box at times. I limit Him through my human filter, and I continually miss the mark. Thank Him for His grace.

So, in the event of this opportunity, I had to ask myself.. would I give up my life here for Him? If He is asking me to move, would I do it? It took a lot of heart check.. prayer.. and conversation, but ultimately, I got to a place where I was going to the interview and even excited about what He could be doing with me. After all, He knows best. Shortly after the accepting the interview, the guy called and said it was a 'no-go' for a couple of reasons. Namely, I wasnt qualified for the position he needed filled. I admit, I was happy. I spent the evening in my community and I just felt a flood of emotion... just relishing in Gods fingers in everything going on in my life right now. And I thought, Of course it's a no..I really felt like it was the way it was supposed to be. God has me in the middle of so many things right now here.. and so many parts of my life line up with me being right here in this season. And for me to be thankful to be in Plano is a huge thing for me. It was a good heart check for me, and it brought up some good stuff between the Lord and me. And then the guy called back with a changed mind and offered another interview..

I felt reassured that this is where I am supposed to be, and this time.. I thought, hmm.. uhh, no, I'm not going to go. I politely declined the next day. The thing is, even though I felt like not taking this job was the best decision right now.. I didn't see the forest past the trees. I felt bad that I didn't go, but I couldn't figure out why. Until today.. after a lot of prayer and being in the Word. God never asked me to take this job. He provided me an interview opportunity. I assumed what this opportunity was.. and I didn't trust Him enough to see it through. I have no idea what He would've use this opportunity for.. maybe it was interview experience, maybe it was something the people interviewing needed, maybe.. maybe.. maybe. The bottomline is that I didn't go the distance. And I had to ask God for forgiveness in that. He provides opportunities every day.. with situations, people, all kinds of encounters.. and it's my job to do my part by being obedient and seeing these opportunities through.

I'm a girl who likes packages wrapped up neatly at the end of the day. And that's something I have to get over. Life is a series of unfinished business.. encounters we won't ever see fruit in.. and situations we will never know how He weaves together. And yes, sometimes we get the priviledge of seeing some of that, but we still don't know the depths of all the layers. It's isn't our business. Our business it to trust and move... and this was a good lesson for me. Some days will look ordinary... some will be extraordinary.. but they all have something in common, they are all filled with opportunties, big and small, that the Lord is asking us to be a part of.

New motto for Life: Trust, move and Don't Assume.