Season of Love.

Wow, I havent blogged since Easter! I have so much in my head right now, Im not sure where to start. I think the biggest lesson for me over the last 2 weeks has been God's sovereignty. Yep, it's a biggie. In fact, it's so big, my little pea brain has a hard time wrapping itself around the whole idea. However, what I am learning is that I don't have to understand it.. I just have to have faith in it and be obedient to it. My thinking and my way of behaving has changed in such big ways this last year. Esp., the last 9 months. So much so that is has to be supernatural. Being obedient to what God is showing me and telling me is the most exciting adventure of my life! And to think that I was afraid that truly giving my life over to Him would be boring. Hah. I think for some people that is a real fear. If I give up the world, man, there's some good stuff in there.. God? I mean, how fun can it be to wear turtlenecks, never laugh, only talk about "Christian" things, never be allowed to make mistakes, etc? I can't remember the last time I wore a turtleneck! Kinda funny, but what some people imagine it to be like.. and wow, what a lie. My journey to Him and with Him has been more peaceful, exhilarating, fun and satisfying than anything I have ever experienced in my life. He IS funny.. and fun.. and warm.. exciting.. loving.. and STABLE. My word, can I get an 'amen' for stable? I'm loving that part the most.. that when I keep my eyes fixed on Him, no matter what my circumstances.. I can find consistency and peace there. I am over drama.. and that old life of being a slave to my emotions, my circumstances, a bad relationship, my sin.

I'm not saying I don't ever struggle.. I do.. had a freak out just last week. But they don't last very long and He is so generous and faithful that it's been easy to get right back on track. Sure, I want to control things sometimes.. but then I remember, I really don't.. (it never was that fun trying.. it still isn't) One, it's impossible.. and Two, it's so much sweeter coming from Him without a tantrum on my end. I want what He wants for my life.. I want to bring Him as much glory as I can through the kind of sister, daughter, mother, friend, coworker I am and (someday) wife that I will be. I love loving Him.. and I love being loved by Him. He is courting me in a big way right now, and I am wooed. I am head over heels for Him.


Today, I am loving... Cowboy Jake, details to come!